I'm bringing sexy back.

All my life I thought "beautiful" meant perfection. If I weren't the most superficiallyattractive woman in the room, I felt inadequate. If I didn't look AWESOME, I wouldn't be wanted or loved.

What an idiot!

Now I weigh 30+ pounds more and my baby-stretched, flabby belly hangs over my pants. Heck, it even bunches up under my bra when I'm sitting down -- and I can feel my ass when I walk!! And yet I feel sexier than ever. It does help that extra weight means I actually have SOME boobs... But even moreso, it helps that I've realized that sexy IS an attitude. And as many people will tell you, I have PLENTY of that.

So to heck with those who still perceive attractiveness as coming only in a 19 year old perfection package. Methinks they are REALLY missing out! I'd much rather be a MILF.

Ugh

I hate these kinds of days when I look at the dirty floors and the remnants of vacation stuff strewn around and think about everything I SHOULD have gotten done but didn't and feel just cruddy.  The major upside?? I get to see my kids today and I LOVE THEM. Here is where I find my balance: I make sure and revel in the good stuff and try not to think about the other. :)

All good things must come to an end...

Last year I vowed to bring a little bit of vacation type fun into our lives more frequently. Now that vacation is over as of 5 a.m. tomorrow, I get to try again. I'm gonna count Zumba as fun and get my much-more-ample bum shaking with the kids several times a week now, I think. I was considering taking up jogging - until I (luckily) read that high impact activities can age old women like me more quickly by loosening collagen bonds. Definitely can't let that happen! I already have one eyebrow that's practically down to my chin.

Now if only I had a chauffeur to drive me the hour to and from work everyday! Butt clenches in the car don't count as a work out, unfortunately, but at least I could get some grading done.

Now I just need some sleep. 4:20 a.m. will come awfully early -- and I've got a fun-filled 15 hour drive ahead of me!

Shopping!

No better way to lift my spirits.  And as long as I've got the credit cards paid off and money in savings, I'm going to indulge my addiction.  HA!!!!

It's time!!!

I just read my last post and almost laughed out loud - - or vomited - - or both.  How uptight does my vocab sound?!?  Sheesh.


So I'm back.  I won't promise it's permanent, but I'm gonna try.  Heck, it's going to take me months just to catch up on the last year I've spent NOT blogging.  But at least this post is a start.  At least I'm ready to start sharing my thoughts again - and boy have they been twisted since last summer when a very sad, psychotic woman decided that she must destroy me both personally and professionally (because I had once been in a relationship with the guy she was screwing - who was NOT her husband?!?) and I became a self-centered bad friend and non writer. :o(


But there's nothing like imagining your worst-case-scenario as having your teaching career destroyed, losing your house, and having to move back into your parents' home where you would focus your efforts on writing a best seller about your ordeal to make you realize your life is pretty darned awesome - especially in comparison to the nightmare the psycho has caused for herself.  (Oh, to have been present when the police apprehended her as she prostrated herself amongst her neighbor's hastas, as if they wouldn't find her and realize she was up to no good when she was decked out in a ski mask, hoodie, gloves, and sweats in the dead of of a 90 degree summer!)  Certainly gaining a challenging yet uber rewarding new teaching job with the BEST KIDS EVER has been quite a help as well.  And of course being back on the shore, lulled by the crashing waves and rejuvenated by the warmth of the sun (and my kids' laughter and hugs) has really helped me get back in touch with ME in a way that makes me want to reach out again.


And so my "new me resolution" is to once again blog.


And a special thank you to escape_button and her blog about the pursuit of happiness for inspiring me.  Funny how a complete stranger can totally change our lives without even knowing it.


Get ready, blog readers!  It's going to be an amazing ride this time!!